i usually don’t blog too often on tumblr only when i’m upset or stressed so it’s one of those feelings that i’m feeling right now. yes finals is just around the corner and currently i’m in a state of panic as with everyone but you would think that that it would help when you talk to someone about your troubles and they would understand you but it seems like they don’t know exactly know what you’re going through to understand fully. it is a little bit upsetting when you’re shut down like that going through a time of great need. i feel like i don’t really have anyone who truly understands me to the fullest extent. this is my current outlet for the time being until i find that someone who does understands my life’s pains, struggle and eventual progress from it. life has its ups and downs but currently my life is in its downstage where i feel like i’m faking my happiness as well. however, i need to be happy so that those around me don’t worry. being depressed sucks but i really can’t help it especially when i don’t have something to preoccupy my mind. lately, i’ve had random thoughts of depression for who knows what strange reason. the mind just works in random ways. maybe it’s finals maybe it’s how currently my situation is at hand. who knows? i probably know but its stuck deep in the concaves of my mind. feeling depressed and not knowing how to get out of this rut is tough. there are times when i think that it would be better if i never existed but then again i’m pretty sure every normal person has such thoughts or maybe i’m not normal. i just want these feelings to go away because i don’t want to be like this anymore i just want to live a stress-free, depression-free life. if only it were possible. i just need a better vent outlet. it just really sucks. it really does. ugh. my life at it’s finest. i need change. something to brighten my outlook on life. 

kristeljoy:

zayhun:

one of the worst moments in life is probably when you’re in a room full of people and you look around and see them all talking and laughing and all of sudden you feel so sad and lonely that you can even feel a physical pain in your chest because you realize that they all belong to someone and they all have someone who belongs to them and you don’t, you’re just kind of there

;_;. I’m always the 3rd, 5th, 7th, 9th wheeler. Ahhhh-some :|